Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Sugar free September 

    I haven’t slept well this week. I’ve got too much going on upstairs. I’m not sure if a squirrel got into to my cerebral cortex, but it’s been non-stop chatter in there for days now. Between family, opening a new business, and trying to be creative while still meeting all my obligations,  it’s no wonder…

  • Fall memories

    September is here. Today I saw pumpkin spice lattes for sale again, a sure sign that fall is coming.  I walked out of work to step on the familiar crunch of yellowed leaves, curled and wrinkled on the sidewalk, and felt a strange happiness suffuse my soul. I texted my mother, and our conversation turned…

  • August 31st

    Another milestone, left behind in my rear view mirror. I watched as it passed without fanfare or excitement,  Another day in a string of days, the last day of another month. I dressed with the weight of change on my shoulders, pressing down slightly, asking if I knew what I was doing. I brushed it…

  • The struggle 

    Sometimes I feel the urge to scream as long and loud as I can, rail against the wind, howling my anger against man. It bubbles out, as hot as pitch, and as dark as night, the twisting and growling  as it leaves with a fight. When things become too much, and I need a break…

  • Guardians

    Tonight I watched Guardians of the Galaxy- volume 2.  Well, tonight I finished it at least. We usually start a movie one night and have to finish it over the course of a few nights since having kids.  Either we’re too tired, or it’s past our self- imposed 9 pm bedtime and we know we’ll…

  • Pinterest isn’t my wheelhouse

    I’m tired today.  Another Monday, and I found myself sitting in the car for a few minutes on both ends of work- When I got there to psych myself up, and then when I got home, to breathe. I knew on the other side of the door my family waited,  but I was so tired…

  • Heros

    What does it take To pay homage to your hero? How can you show them  what they’ve done for you? Shaping the way you think and experience  the world, A hero can be anyone at all I’ve had so many in my life, I can’t even name them all. I grew up surrounded by giants …

  • Heros

    What does it take To pay homage to your hero? How can you show them  what they’ve done for you? Shaping the way you think and experience  the world, A hero can be anyone at all I’ve had so many in my life, I can’t even name them all. I grew up surrounded by giants …

  • Fight Night

    I wonder what kind of drive it takes to want to be the best of the best. I like to make a decent showing, But I haven’t ever felt the need to be number one, as long as I’m not the last in line. Watching the fight tonight brought back the question, What kind of…

  • Silent Goodbye

    I woke up this morning,  within minutes  feeling anxiety  lodge in my chest.  It was a deep discomfort,  like I was forgetting something, The tightness moved in to stay,  deciding to inhabit  the area around  my heart.  I’ve had this same sensation  a handful of times,  and now know what it means,  although I wish…