Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Fall memories

    September is here. Today I saw pumpkin spice lattes for sale again, a sure sign that fall is coming.  I walked out of work to step on the familiar crunch of yellowed leaves, curled and wrinkled on the sidewalk, and felt a strange happiness suffuse my soul. I texted my mother, and our conversation turned…

  • August 31st

    Another milestone, left behind in my rear view mirror. I watched as it passed without fanfare or excitement,  Another day in a string of days, the last day of another month. I dressed with the weight of change on my shoulders, pressing down slightly, asking if I knew what I was doing. I brushed it…

  • The struggle 

    Sometimes I feel the urge to scream as long and loud as I can, rail against the wind, howling my anger against man. It bubbles out, as hot as pitch, and as dark as night, the twisting and growling  as it leaves with a fight. When things become too much, and I need a break…

  • Guardians

    Tonight I watched Guardians of the Galaxy- volume 2.  Well, tonight I finished it at least. We usually start a movie one night and have to finish it over the course of a few nights since having kids.  Either we’re too tired, or it’s past our self- imposed 9 pm bedtime and we know we’ll…

  • Pinterest isn’t my wheelhouse

    I’m tired today.  Another Monday, and I found myself sitting in the car for a few minutes on both ends of work- When I got there to psych myself up, and then when I got home, to breathe. I knew on the other side of the door my family waited,  but I was so tired…

  • Heros

    What does it take To pay homage to your hero? How can you show them  what they’ve done for you? Shaping the way you think and experience  the world, A hero can be anyone at all I’ve had so many in my life, I can’t even name them all. I grew up surrounded by giants …

  • Heros

    What does it take To pay homage to your hero? How can you show them  what they’ve done for you? Shaping the way you think and experience  the world, A hero can be anyone at all I’ve had so many in my life, I can’t even name them all. I grew up surrounded by giants …

  • Fight Night

    I wonder what kind of drive it takes to want to be the best of the best. I like to make a decent showing, But I haven’t ever felt the need to be number one, as long as I’m not the last in line. Watching the fight tonight brought back the question, What kind of…

  • Silent Goodbye

    I woke up this morning,  within minutes  feeling anxiety  lodge in my chest.  It was a deep discomfort,  like I was forgetting something, The tightness moved in to stay,  deciding to inhabit  the area around  my heart.  I’ve had this same sensation  a handful of times,  and now know what it means,  although I wish…

  • High school, now and then 

    Some days random thoughts come to mind.  Today’s special appearance was an old tv show, from almost twenty five years ago. Parker Lewis can’t lose.  High school redone for the millionth time, but from the perspective of a cool kid.  Cause that’s never been done, right? They would always synchronize swatches whenever they had a…