Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Mighty 

    Some days I feel so small, a tiny cog in a big wheel,  ready to crush me under  it’s uncaring weight. Alone in a group, Odd and out of place.  Not quite in step With the rest of the human race. Then I remember what happens With giant machines. They may tremble and shake the…

  • Unsettled 

    The feeling curls around my throat, Loose at first  then becoming  Tight, The coils of a python trapping me Within a tight embrace I wonder  Will I escape? Shiny though the scales are,  warm and smooth, Soft in the caress of death.  Deceptively dangerous, I gasp for breath Searching for a last crumb Of release …

  • Sail away

    It’s a tired day today. Nothing wrong, no giant stressors, but tired,  weary in my bones. I’ve caught myself dreaming of a real vacation today in a way that I haven’t for awhile. It feels like the last time I was free was forever ago,  and I’m not sure how to get there anymore.  How do…

  • Glorious day

    Today was a full and busy day. My beautiful little girl turned five, and dressed herself in sequins and jewelry befitting her princess status. She twirled and smiled, pleased that it was her special day and not a tear was seen, even when her brother hit her with her new Barbie.  I was very impressed.…

  • The birthday party

    The day before my middle child’s birthday was a busy one.  All of the preparations that go into normal life milestones unfolded in quick succession. First, we waved our goodbyes to friends who’d been staying with us, envious of their week venture into the Rockies in Bob, the RV.   A trip that we most likely…

  • Recreate 

    Sometimes you have to start fresh, explore what you want from the world. Get away, and see the world through new eyes, as though each thing you encounter is unknown. When things get stale and  your groove  becomes a rut  which becomes a hole,  It’s time to start climbing until you can see daylight again.…

  • Truth is relative 

    Full of anticipation I went into battle today, before being struck by a thought that hit me after a quick browse on social media Truth is relative. I’m reading item after item where people are passionately defending their point of view,  convinced it is the only true way to view the world. Others pick up…

  • Warmth on a cold day

    Thursday. What to write on such a normal day? It’s a thorny problem that sometimes plagues me on the journey to write daily.  What to do when the inspiration doesn’t move me?  When I can’t think of anything new or exciting? Go back to the beginning. It was a good day. I finished proof reading…

  • Early morning musings

    I’ve been waking up around 4am for the last week. A combination of a busy mind and butterflies in my heart, I think.  So much happening in the world around me, I just feel overwhelmed at times, and I think my subconscious needs a break from all the processing and restocking of shelves that happens…

  • Frayed edges

    Today ran smoothly, except for those moments when it didn’t. Small stressors, large outbursts from tiny tots, full of the will to disobey.  Parental moods plummeting with each small tantrum and act of violence toward their sibling.  The first full nosebleed related to a head butt, appearing slightly dented but hopefully with only cartilaginous damage.…