Thought Salad

Tag: loss

  • Recovery

    Recovery

    It’s been awhile since I sat down to explore myself and my reactions to the world. It’s not because I had no emotions, or found the world to be an unending paradise, but the opposite. I’ve lived in a House of Strep, which felt like a burden of unbearable proportions. But we bore it, somehow.…

  • The big questions

    The big questions

    Another day closer to the end of the month, nine months down and counting. October will soon be here which is good, as my three year old is obsessed with saying, “Halloween time is here!” Every time it’s dark outside. And it feels as though winter will soon be here, even though the week has…

  • The big questions

    The big questions

    Another day closer to the end of the month, nine months down and counting. October will soon be here which is good, as my three year old is obsessed with saying, “Halloween time is here!” Every time it’s dark outside. And it feels as though winter will soon be here, even though the week has…

  • Underwater slow motion

    I’m dreaming of the weekend, Wondering if I’ll get to sleep in, or do a thousand things instead. My soul is a lead balloon dragging me down, in to the still channels Where the fish float by Examining me with their large, unbelieving eyes. Confused to see the surface dweller Within their midst. I shake…

  • Tautology Of life

    Tautology Of life

    Birth and death, Beginnings and endings Those at the start of the day And those watching the sun set We all start out fresh Unwrinkled Sublime But use up that spark, Until one day, The light winks out The curtains fall, And the next act begins What if the light we see As we go…

  • Life’s little moments

    Life’s little moments

    Today I celebrated life. I cleaned, mopped and did laundry, Dishes, tidying, the works. I took my children to play, And we decided which kind of dragons we’d be, Which powers we’d have All because we read ‘dragon water’ Instead of drinking water On the back of a truck I held my little one as…

  • Goodnights

    Goodnights

    Another Friday here again, But this time, Sadness is my companion The pain of living Poignant and sharp Those I love, Those I don’t know Lives intricately torn apart Memories of the way They once were Now, at the close of the day All faded and grey I can still remember music Chords on a…

  • Prayer for a tired spirit

    Prayer for a tired spirit

    This week has felt long Weighed heavy on the heart So many lives lost Always tears me apart But work marches on Another problem to heal But what does one do When you’re at your limit to feel? All I can do And all that I know Is to hug my loved one’s closer And…

  • Heartache and hope

    Heartache and hope

    I watched my children more closely tonight. It had been a normal day, Maybe better than most. They were happy, and decently mannered. The fights were minor and short. They gave me hugs and kisses Even brushed their teeth and got pyjamas on without complaint. But I held them a little tighter Kissed them a…

  • Visitor in the night

    I bolted upright At 3 am Wondering why I was awake The quiet wrapped itself Around my soul Whispering Of someone’s fate A brush of wings Against my face Someone I couldn’t see I closed my eyes Tight As my breath ran away And said Goodbye To the visitor As they left Quietly In the…