Thought Salad

I wonder if life would have been different if I hadn’t been in the middle. growing up, worrying about being on time, getting everything done on time. feeling guilty if I didn’t do what I was supposed to. Being responsible. sensible prudent I was always dependable. The designated driver, the worker who would pick up…

Note to self- all we have is this moment hold your loved ones tight there is no later smell the babies head, kiss the toddler, hug the teen moments are fast then gone. Be present in this moment     via Daily Prompt: Later

The first time I heard about this alien thing  of nanowrimo was in a writers magazine the year my youngest was born. He wasn’t quite nine months, and I remember that I was starting to feel restless inside, the way I always did when the kids came up to the one year mark. Its like…

I had a glimpse twenty years ago, And it felt so real that the tears rolled down my cheeks the morning after.  The dream had been a moment of realism, Of love so wide that I had known in that instant that somewhere was a person Just for me. I never saw his face, but…

Two deep gasping breaths, then stopped as I entered the room. The woman sitting by his bedside turned to me and with anguish said, “There, he just stopped. He just took his last breath.” The grandfather wall clock rang out 1030 all in sequence and I felt his soul rush by my left ear as…

Spring is here in the air and the pussywillows we see every day on the way to my child’s school. The wind has been up intermittently, and each time it takes my breath or throws grit in my eyes it reminds me it’s time for change. Spring is the time of year when natures brushes…

They tickle somewhere up near my throat, swarming in what I’m sure must be a beautiful pattern of drawn out o’s.  I feel my stomach lurch, not enjoying the tickle of the wings as they brush by my heart, sending adrenaline coursing through. I take several long and slow breaths, trying to count to ten.…