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The wheel
I’ve been torn in many directions today, wondering about life in all it’s mysteries. Thinking about the giant wheel that goes around, leading us unerringly from beginning to end and back again I think of people on the bottom of Maslows hierarchy, struggling to make ends meet, To get enough warmth, shelter, and food to…
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Knowing the score
Today I felt a deep pit in my stomach. It swelled and grew, full of certainty and acceptance, with a side of sadness Every day I deal with people on the worst days of their lives, breaking bad news I hope I’m kind, and I hope my presence helps them walk through the mine field…
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What the what
I’m not technologically gifted. So every now and then WordPress is beyond me, and stops posting to Facebook. I then spend an irritating half an hour, or longer, attempting to figure it out, again. And this is after my two year old deleted the first post I had done tonight. So, a short couple of…
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Memories, acid, and social media
Do you have memories that make you cringe? I do. They stay hidden away in the attic, rattling around in the dark until something causes them to wake up and come back, awkward with their presence. Most of these memories are small, but some are doozies. Many are what I call my “Bridget Jones moments”,…
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Fork in the road
I’ve been on the phone a lot this week, dealing with uncertainty. We have the illusion of control in life, easily shattered by the questions you can’t answer, or the things you can’t control. I don’t play God, I play Russian roulette. Is this the right choice? I ask myself this question multiple times every…
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Commit
Some words feel like home, tucked into your heart, the way you see the world, the way it falls apart. I’ve lived a few years now, And I’ve learned a thing or two, But the word commit keeps finding me, Making me come through I was raised to stay the course, Don’t give in, Never…
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Paper
Pressed sheets of tree, purpose aplenty. My day was full of paper in all its incarnations. Paper of news, work, and page after page of addresses and notifications as I attempt to notify the world of my new endeavour in the appropriate, college sanctioned way. But after spending nine hours on paper for work purposes,…
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The circle
It continues eternally, smooth and perfect, a loop unending We struggle to understand it from the moment of our arrival, stunned and blinded by the light of the world Continually striving, climbing, growing and changing, Becoming, unceasing, perpetual in the nature of the transformation we undertake. Until the last minute, we are in a constant…
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Back to midlife
So I spent another day hobbling around. On the upside, I discovered stronger leg and butt muscles than I realized I had, as I stood and sat completely without using my back muscles. Once again, everyone noticed and told me I should be at home. I agreed, but when I said work was more relaxing…
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When people notice
Today was a struggle, but at the end of it, I feel as though the world is a better place then yesterday. It started yesterday when my back decided to turn one hundred, leaving me lying on the floor by the door unable to move. I was laughing and crying, as my husband threatened me…