Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Qualm before the Storm

    An uneasy feeling, Best described by the prickles down your spine, Racing pulse carrying the inborn fear of the dark, Fear. Powerful and overwhelming, no one is completely immune I fear so many things sometimes I wonder if anywhere is safe Heights, falling, crowds, small spaces, The dark But like many others,  I continue through…

  • Hospitality

    She was always there, behind the scenes,  Always a hug away Always a phone call away Always available to provide a shoulder or an ear,  a congratulations or commiseration  Deeply involved, no matter how old their baby got,  The job lasts a lifetime. The cooking, the cleaning, the driving, the counselling,  No expiry date, no…

  • Approach to the finish line

    The days are starting to draw closer to the Calgary marathon. I’ve been getting weekly emails, reminding me of pick up time, sponsors, etc, etc. I was very gung-ho and excited about doing this until about mid-march when I swear, the wheels just fell right off the wagon. I was tired, exhausted, and went from…

  • Home

    A maze of bags and shoes block the doorway,  Toys sprawl out of the toddler’s room and into the entryway Three warm and rambunctious bodies propel into me as I enter the house, Shouts of joys deafening and in unison The dog knocks one over, and the joy quickly turns to wails of indignation. Not…

  • Pink

    I imagine it’s hardly a surprise to those who know me, but I don’t “do” days off. At least, not very well. I’ve been gifted? or cursed? With that feeling of inner restlessness I have been working on mindfulness, sometimes mediation (although not very well! I can’t quiet the thoughts in my head. It’s a…

  • Pursue

    Pursue

    It started so long ago I don’t even recall the first hurdle Climb every mountain, ford every stream. The Von Trapp family took it on the road, And so did I eventually. The struggle was to outdo what I’d done before, fight a little higher, Push myself to rest a little shorter, Graduate, study, repeat,…

  • Temporary

    I had the recent experience of being sedated for a procedure, and it caused me pause for thought. While it was temporary, probably not lasting more than thirty minutes it caused me to reconsider what I know of drug use and abuse. I see many people on a weekly and sometimes daily basis who struggle…

  • Bitter

    Some things sour a person, Make them feel a deep pit inside, acidic and darkly rich Emotions we’d rather not explore that linger long within one’s soul So many things can trigger it, different for each The feeling of being passed over for one less deserving, Wrongfully convicted of a deed that you didn’t or…

  • Weekend away

    Another day of course work, waking up panicked before my alarm went off for some unknown reason. I felt like I’d slept in, and was surprised to see I still had twenty minutes left before it would tell me to get up and start the day. I lay there for a few minutes trying to…

  • For better

    I knocked on the door, wondering if he’d heard me over the noise of the tv. He opened up, and smiled.”Oh it’s you Doctor. Come in, come in. The clinic called and I got worried something bad was in the bloodwork.” I rushed to reassure him. “Oh no, nothing like that.I just wanted to make…