Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Memories, acid, and social media

    Do you have memories that make you cringe?  I do.  They stay hidden away in the attic, rattling around in the dark until something causes them to wake up and come back,  awkward with their presence. Most of these memories are small, but some are doozies.  Many are what I call my “Bridget Jones moments”,…

  • Fork in the road 

    I’ve been on the phone a lot this week, dealing with uncertainty. We have the illusion of control in life, easily shattered by the questions you can’t answer, or the things you can’t control. I don’t play God, I play Russian roulette.  Is this the right choice? I ask myself this question multiple times every…

  • Commit

    Some words feel like home,  tucked into your heart,  the way you see the world,  the way it falls apart. I’ve lived a few years now, And I’ve learned a thing  or two, But the word commit  keeps finding me, Making me come through I was raised to stay the course, Don’t give in, Never…

  • Paper

    Pressed sheets of tree, purpose aplenty.  My day was full of paper in all its incarnations.  Paper of news, work, and page after page of addresses and notifications as I attempt to notify the world of my new endeavour in the appropriate, college sanctioned way. But after spending nine hours on paper for work purposes,…

  • The circle 

    It continues eternally, smooth and perfect,  a loop unending We struggle to understand it from the moment of our arrival,  stunned and blinded by the light of the world Continually striving,  climbing,  growing and changing, Becoming, unceasing,  perpetual in the nature of the transformation we undertake. Until the last minute, we are in a constant…

  • Back to midlife

    So I spent another day  hobbling around.  On the upside, I discovered stronger leg and butt muscles than I realized I had,  as I stood and sat completely without using my back muscles. Once again, everyone noticed and told me I should be at home.  I agreed, but when I said work was more relaxing…

  • When people notice 

    Today was a struggle, but at the end of it, I feel as though the world is a better place then yesterday. It started yesterday when my back decided to turn one hundred, leaving me lying on the floor by the door unable to move. I was laughing and crying, as my husband threatened me…

  • Father’s Day 

    Today is Father’s Day. A day when we celebrate our Dads, give them ties and keychains and coffee mugs or other tchotchkes made in school with patient teachers. A day that brings back great memories from childhood. My father showing me how to ride the little red bmx, knees above the handle bars with his…

  • Backyard lessons

    I watched them play today, Out in the backyard surrounded by nature. The oldest becoming a leader, showing her little brother what to do, The middle forging her own path through forbidden territory, bold and willing to risk the consequences to do things her way  The youngest trusting he wouldn’t be led astray, looking up…

  • Creation

    I think we all want to make our mark on the world. For some people, it’s about accomplishing grand things, making a lot of money, having huge buildings with their names on them Achievement means being important and recognized, famous for something. Some people will go to any lengths to do this. They’ll sell their…