Thought Salad

Category: Thoughts on life and death

  • Leap

    Leap

    An aching hole left behind A cavity of space Between what is and what was Change is never easy Uncertainty brutal and unkind I laugh at my own hesitation And do nothing But wait until my time More each day I realize how short Life is Fleeting A run with a stopwatch Off a cliff…

  • Monday has been brought to you by caffeine

    Monday has been brought to you by caffeine

    I found myself in that awkward spot today multiple times. You know, the place where your nostrils flare as you try to stifle a yawn, so you don’t look like a jerk who’s not listening. My sleep last night, while nothing to write home about, was probably the closest thing to 8 hours I’ve had…

  • Thoughts about parenting at night after the children are in bed

    Thoughts about parenting at night after the children are in bed

    I had no inkling Not a single clue Just how much children Could do to you One moment my life Went swimming along All by myself, Singing a song Worried about loneliness, But free as a bird I never thought I’d be surrounded by words Unceasing chatter, But full of delights They light up my…

  • Picnic and a movie

    Picnic and a movie

    We had a picnic tonight. Leftovers on paper plates on a used tablecloth- Princess Sophie, from Sam’s birthday in September. The children were excited and so grateful- a fun new way to eat supper on the living room floor. I put on a movie from my list of favorites as a child, and watched as…

  • The dance

    The dance

    A faded corner in a crowd A silhouette without a face I look around for clarity But return empty from the chase The winter is cold and brutal My faith lacks for strength Each day drags with exhaustion No shortage in its length Some days last forever An eternity in a glance I close my…

  • Neuro exam

    Neuro exam

    My life is a series of rapid alternating movements A test of nerves, A battle of beliefs The never ending trill Of art and science Adding dissonance and beauty Simultaneously In a pattern the masters of Baroque would envy Some days, The music goes on without end And sometimes, When the music stops The rest…

  • The meeting

    The meeting

    Another late night Working away from home Passionate people with drive Discussing difficult topics Meetings have never been my favorite, I usually feel bogged down and slow But these ones are lively, Dominant issues and important items Each person with opinions and heart Meetings have never been my favorite But these at least, are a…

  • Burn the witch!

    Burn the witch!

    I’ve walked through today feeling guilty for some reason, like I forgot to do something. Like maybe I was tardy for an event, or stood someone up. It’s the feeling I’ve gotten in the past when I know that I’ve let someone down, but for the life of me, I can’t think of a single…

  • Ten months

    Ten months

    I just got a notification from bluehost, the company that owns my domain for thoughtsalad, reminding me that it was due for renewal in less than 60 days. When I first signed up to write my blog, it was as a personal challenge. I wanted to unload from the sometimes emotionally exhausting work that I…

  • Sunday blues

    Sunday blues

    I don’t know what truck hit me today- never got the licence plate number- but man. Every inch of my body hurt, I could hardly keep my eyes open and I felt deathly afraid of food. My strategy for the entire day boiled down to one thing- don’t die. I got up for about half…